In our lives, there are some moments that are hard to forget and no matter how old we get, these moments stay buried in our hearts and memories. We cherish them with a smile, even if they didn’t go as planned at the time.
Our minds have a unique feature that tends to filter most of the memories. So even when there is a memory that broke our heart at a time, we’d probably look back at it with a smile in 30 or 40 years.
Well, this is at least true for my first disastrous date.
It Is Not All Rainbows And Butterflies.
There isn’t a certain age when boys start asking girls out. Some are early birds who start dating before they are 9. Some are late bloomers who get asked out in their high school or even after it. I have known really serious love stories that began when both people involved were just kids. And I have seen 2 of my friends get married after they started dating when they were in fifth grade!
To me, I had a crush on almost every boy in my class when I was in sixth grade. Basically my crush means that I want to play with them, talk to them and help them with their studies. You see, I was kind of smart and I had to use what I have. I was also good looking but then I don’t think that I realized that at the time. The most serious crush I had was on a boy who didn’t talk to me at all. He was kind of quiet and mysterious and this made me believe that he was deep and so out of my league.
I was wrong, of course.
Sweet Memories? Think Again.
Well, I said that people tend to remember most of their memories with a smile on their faces. I specifically said “MOST” for a reason. For as long as I shall live, I will never ever forget that time this boy made the whole class laugh at me. I was kind of very sick, had an important quiz and my nose was just blocked. So I started to blow my nose. Gross? I am sure that I didn’t do it for long either. I just did. I had to breathe! Obviously my basic instinct of survival that pushed me to try to breathe caused me to discard the fact that maybe I was doing it a bit too loud. Or maybe because it was kind of quiet during the quiz that he suddenly looked at me and started to laugh. In a few seconds, everybody was laughing along. I don’t know what happened but I felt that my cheeks went on fire. I just wished I could disappear.
When Someone Dates You Out Of Guilt…Or Not!
I didn’t cry but I was very embarrassed as the teacher stopped everybody from laughing and attracted their attention to the quiz one more time. I am sure that after 5 minutes nobody remembered this but I had the most terrible moment in my whole life (until then) that I didn’t even want to go to school the next day.
The next day, however, he came to me. I hated him. I didn’t want to hear what he had to say. But he was trying to apologize. He explained that he was totally wired because of the quiz and I just had this pain inside of me because I actually cared for him and didn’t understand how he could hurt me this way. These were the good days when I thought that people only hurt those who hurt them in the first place. I thought that if someone loves you, it is normal that you appreciate that love….good times.
The First Time He Asked Me Out.
“Would you like to have an ice cream?” There was this ice cream shop, not far away from our school and we used to go to get some at the end of the day. But as far as I was concerned this was a date. He did ask me out. I stood there for a minute, and I said something like “Ah…ha….ya”. I don’t really remember what I said. I just remember that he asked again. So I said yes.
I never felt that all eyes were on me as they were at this moment. I felt that everybody was looking at me in a moment that reminds me now of the movie “Inception”. Except that I was probably hallucinating. Nobody was looking. Nothing happened. Nobody cared.
On the way to the shop, I remember that he started to babble about his favorite football match, the quiz, his brother, …. a lot of things that made me think twice. He didn’t seem that sophisticated after all. He was kind of silly. I just felt that there was a big picture of him inside my mind that had nothing to do with the truth. So I shook the feeling off and went on.
When we reached the shop, we both ordered chocolate ice cream. And he paid. I remember that he was laughing and enjoying every minute of it. I remember this moment and I smile. As we grow older we realize that genuine people are hard to find. But this was a good moment. It was genuine. We were happy.
It did last for some time though but it was mainly about being best friends and trusting each other. To me, I think this is the best way to express love. Even though seems like a hundred years ago. But every time I have a chocolate ice cream I see the memory of a sunny afternoon when everything seemed possible.
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